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Trusting The Decision

Elan Elan
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As you transform, the nature of the interaction between us also by definition transforms.

Were we to put a label on the phase of interaction that we share with you now and for the past approximately two years of your time?

Perhaps simply as a label, it would be filed under the category of the simplification. For allowing you to create new distinctions, allowing you to understand different ways to define yourself, allowing you to literally recreate yourself from your old contracted less empowered approach towards your new open expanded effective approach has served its course. And now brings us to the point to remind you that the living the implication of the things that we share and the things that you are now ready to express are truly quite simple. And so the many distinctions and definitions that we have shared come in handy, have their place, allow you to hinge and pivot your approach to begin to be more effective and productive in creating your lives. However, the process of simplification allows you as a linear being to remain focused. Focused to express yourself consciously without, as you say, too many details to distract you.

The way that we have simplified our particular communications with you has been to take everything that we have shared, which by all means we can still discuss in the quote unquote older definitional terms, but for now allowing us to render this down to simply three ideas. These three ideas are indeed for every moment that you have created yourself as a physical being and for that matter for every moment that you have created yourself as any type of being you have ever or will ever be. Three things are what you do. And three things are all it takes in that sense to begin to shift who you are according to your preference, according to who you know yourself to be rather than any other criteria.

By way of brief review, those three things are simply the decision, the trust in the decision, and action. Action is the stuff that physical reality is made of, so to speak. Now, physical reality actually is created on a consciousness level, but you still function within the apparency of the necessity for action. And so we incorporate action into the idea because incidentally your actions change and the change in that physical output seems to be what creates the change in your reality. Therefore we include that to simply give you something to work with that falls within your strongest belief system about how you move your reality.

Last interaction of your time, we discussed in some detail the idea of part one: the decision and exactly what that means. Briefly, in every given moment you create yourself 100%. Not 99, not 98, not 80, 100%. And in that moment you make a decision. You make the decision about who you are. Now you already do this, always have as a physical being and in that way always will. So this is nothing new. You make a decision. Now up till now the basis of that decision “this is who I am” you have created as being contingent or dependent on external circumstance, external symbology, timing, and what you refer to as the past and the future.

Therefore individuals would make a decision “this is who I am” based on for instance their circumstance. Well, here is my circumstance. So, this must be who I am because my circumstance is telling me so; only this type of person would create this type of circumstance. And so, therefore, with that approach, you use your circumstances as a gauge or a yardstick to make the decision in this moment: This is who I understand myself to be. This is who I am. And what this actually is is a decision about who you are. And we revise the wording to include the word decision because a decision can also be made consciously. The idea of conscious creatorhood, creating your life according to conscious means, requires that you begin to entertain the idea of allowing your decisions to be conscious simply because you’re going to make a decision anyway. If you allow that decision to be conscious and according to who you know yourself to be, your effect, your result will be more representative of who you know yourself to be and who you wish to express yourself as as a physical being.

We also mentioned that individuals will use what you call their timings, their past, their future to decide in the moment, this is who I am. So for instance they may say this is who I am and the reason that this is who I am, the reason that I make this decision about myself is because this happened when I was a child. This happened in my past life. This happened yesterday. I did this then and therefore that is why I am who I am. When you make the decision in that way, utilizing the past as your criteria for making the decision, the decision still sticks. So the effect that you get is yes, you are that type of person. And yes, you are because of this thing that you did or this thing that happened to you or this thing that you experienced. The point that I am making is that you make this decision in every given moment. And by simply being aware and entertaining the idea that this decision need not be dictated to you by circumstances and timing, but can be created by you purposefully and constructively, that little bit of information to take a mechanism you already use and apply it is all it takes to begin right now to completely redefine who you are.

By way of a suggestion, were you to be asked who you are? Who are you? My suggestion would be to begin to answer this question for yourself as we speak. Who is it you see yourself as your ideal self? For you are going to make some decision. And if you make a conscious decision, all right, I wish my life to now be joyous, to now be in that way satisfying, fulfilling, inspired. Then all you need do is create a decision about yourself consciously from your creative self, from your center, and include those ideas in the decision: satisfaction, inspiration, motivation, productivity, whatever it is. And therefore, when one asks you, who are you? It is always up to you to then have that answer, have that decision be the choice of who you know yourself to be rather than what timing and circumstance dictates.

Now I remind you that you already do this. You already make a decision. Whether you call it that or not, that is what you do. Circumstance comes along and you tend to make a decision thinking that the circumstance is telling you who you are. But actually still ultimately making that decision yourself by buying into it. For of all the stories you see, it is only the story you buy into that determines your experience. All of your experience that you feel occurs within you and to you is actually created from you. And so is the decision. Becoming aware that the decision can now be made according to preference is a liberating notion. And allowing yourself to be conscious about who you are is an expansive approach to your reality. By being willing to commit to that decision and maintain that decision, you get the effects of being the person that you now create yourself to be rather than that you have simply become because of. And then the because of is your external circumstances and timing.

So in our last interaction we discussed purposefully allowing your decision to be registered, allowing your decision to be a function of your will, of your understanding, of your desire and not dictated to you by whatever the elaborate criteria you create is. Therefore, the second idea that allows you to implement that decision to change your life if indeed you feel there is the necessity to change it—perhaps you do not—is the idea of trusting the decision. Because you create yourself in each and every moment completely, in each moment you make the decision about who you are. If you have a consistency to that decision, if you choose who you are and then continue to decide this is who I am, then you create a continuity, then you create the foundation through which you can begin to see the changes in your reality, see the changes in your life through the eyes of the decision, vision rather than through an older approach to your reality.

When you decide who you are, you begin to see as that person and that person sees and interprets its reality and its external circumstances differently. If it is an empowered decision, your interpretation of your circumstance becomes: everything in my circumstance supports my decision. And therefore, if something happens which is unexpected and perhaps formerly with my old decision undesirable, it is now my opportunity to see that circumstance through the eyes of the new decision and therefore derive a different interpretation and a different effect because your approach will now be different. It will be the approach of the you that you decide to be.

Now as a distinction I again remind you we have discussed before what you call trust, sometimes faith, is also again something you always have. Often when mentioning the ideas trust, the ideas faith, we hear what you call a rumbling of groan from individuals thinking, “Oh, I have to have faith. Oh, boy, that is difficult.” Understand the irony of that understanding. Understand the irony of that statement. Having faith is difficult? You always have trust. You always have faith in something. And if you think, “Oh, I am doubting and therefore not having trust,” understand that doubt is not a lack of trust. Doubt is a complete 100% trust in the reality you say you do not prefer. Therefore, realizing this allows you to remove the sense of burden from the idea of trust because you do not have to muster it up, build it up, exercise your trust muscles and express it. You already trust in something. And therefore if you simply are accurate and constructive with your approach you can simply understand all right I am trusting in something.

Now where that comes into this conversation is that you always make a decision and if you trust in that decision and act as though that decision has registered you get the effect of that decision. If you say you do not trust the decision, perhaps because again external circumstances would seem to indicate that the decision was not registered, you are still trusting in something, generally a disempowered idea. And when you trust in that something, it is truly the same thing as deciding that something instead of the something you prefer. The point again is that you always do these things. You always decide. You always trust. If you wish to remove the idea of subconscious intention, unconscious action, then simply being willing to make your decision consciously, to trust your decision consciously is all it takes to use the mechanism you already employ in your life, but use it constructively. Use it to have a desired effect, create the life that you prefer.

Trusting your decision, trusting the decision is truly, truly simply maintaining the decision. You have the idea in your society as you begin to introduce to yourselves the notion that you create your own reality that you can affirm who you are. And in a sense this is accurate. Often individuals will use what you call affirmation in a disempowered way where they are simply saying something and truly believe something else and attempting to talk themselves into something. The type of affirmation that we are discussing which perhaps is more accurately called asserting or assertion is not talking yourself into something. It is realizing that you’re going to decide something anyway and allowing yourself to register that decision purposefully and consciously. Then when circumstance arises that may seem on the surface for just a moment due to your tendency of creating your reality in the older ways, the less empowered ways, if something comes up which seems to run contrary to that decision, you still have the opportunity in every given moment to reestablish the decision, to remind yourself of the decision that you’ve already made. Maintaining, maintenance of that decision is another way to state, another way to call trusting the decision. For it is simply using any feedback that you get from your reality whether it seems supportive or whether it seems in that sense to be opposite of your decision to reign you to your decision, to be an opportunity to realign you to your decision.

Interestingly enough, because you create yourselves 100% in every given moment, the moment you make the decision, you are that person. No ifs, ends or buts, no room for anyone else. That is who you are. Your willingness to trust that your decision has registered itself, sticks in your reality is also another way to define what we mean by trusting the decision. It is the complete confidence that the decision about who I am has been made by me consciously. I was going to make a decision anyway. I choose to make it consciously and I believe, I trust, I insist that that decision sticks. And in making that decision, I am that person. Therefore, you are now willing to begin to see as that person. Making the decision, by the way, is a very definite act of creation. When you state your decision, when you begin in that sense to explore who it is you are and render who you are into what you call a sentence or two for you to invoke that up within you, making that distinction creates you as that being. Therefore, perhaps it is in your best interest to refrain from working into the decision ideas or words that imply that you are already not that person. In other words, it is distinct saying this is who I am rather than this is who I will be, this is who I wish to be, this is who I am becoming. The act of becoming is distinct from the act of being. Therefore, if you word your decision, I am becoming this, I am evolving toward that, I am slowly achieving this, then that effect is worked into the result that you experience from your decision. Being willing to remove all that terminology and simply saying this is who I am, perhaps just because I say so, allows you to experience yourself as that person in that moment. And when you begin to truly trust this, when you begin to apply your trust consciously, you will begin to feel the tinge of excitement knowing that now that you are this person, you can truly only expect the results that that person would get, which I assume if you have been getting results you do not desire in your life, would be viewed as most attractive, most desirable.

Trusting the decision is simply maintenance of the decision. The establishment of the decision, being willing to be specific about that decision, allowing your reality to feed back to you where you can in that sense realign to that decision. And perhaps also allowing your reality to show you where you may wish to make alterations or revisions in the decision. Your decision as you establish it now will only be a result of who you know yourself to be now and the things that you feel are available to you now as you begin to express yourself anew as the preferred you. Circumstance, experience and what you attract will change and you very well may revise to an even more empowered status the decision that you make about yourself. And by all means, be willing to be open to allowing the decision to be honed, carved, worked in such a way where it is polished and where it truly reflects who you are. The moment you make the decision and trust that that decision sticks, you then get to so to speak reality test the decision and see if the decision works for you. If it is an empowered decision, no matter what changes you make in it over time, it will still remain foundationally an empowered approach that can only allow you to yield positive experience in your life.

Again, you already do this. You already decide who you are. You already trust either in the decision of who you are or shift your trust, make a new decision and get a new effect. If you go back and forth shifting decisions, shifting decisions, that is a random expression of your decision. I need not tell you that randomly shifting your decision creates an atmosphere of experience that feels random and thereby your life feels that it happens to you rather than from you. Your life feels random rather than purposeful. Your life feels accidental rather than synchronous or serendipitous. And these experiences are all from decisions that you already make. Therefore, allowing yourself to simplify, simplify your creative ability by simply very finely honing in and stating your decision, clarifying that decision, that vision, and stating it after the words I am, and allowing your body posture and your attitude to exemplify that decision: I am this person. That is what trusting the decision is all about. If you begin to observe yourself in your life, you will see in no uncertain terms how you are already doing this and perhaps can fascinate yourself at the many creative ways that you actually support the experiences in your life you say you do not prefer by participating in the continuance of these negative results through decision, by having those decisions seem to be dictated to you by circumstance and timing. Observing this still is making the decision not to make a positive decision. But at least it is a step in the direction of entertaining the idea that perhaps you just might have something to do with the creation of your reality.

Therefore, by all means, take as much time as you need. Create whatever process you wish. Create whatever elaborate set of steps will allow you to finally make the decision. But understand no matter what process you create, no matter what ritual you participate in, ultimately at some point along that linear process, you will get a result. And that result will not in any way be due to the process but only be due to in that moment making the decision this is who I am and saying the reason that I can now be this person is because of this elaborate process. But ultimately it is the decision after the process, now it’s all right to be this person, that allows you to be that person and not the process in any way. Understanding this allows you to begin to decide who you are right now, not needing to create a process unless you find that most enjoyable, and immediately and completely transforming the face of your entire life and reality, transforming your experience, transforming your interpretation of your reality immediately, transforming your relationships to yourself and others. Making the decision consciously is an empowered creative act. Having that decision be purposeful is using your creative ability purposefully. Having the results and the experience of your life be the result of conscious ideas uses the same mechanism that you already use to create ideas you consider to be unconscious or subconscious. So all the tools that you already use can by simply shifting your perspective minutely be used constructively, can be used positively. Not because you need to change, not because you are not a valid being right now, not because you are not loved by All-That-Is right now, but simply because perhaps you’re ready for a change. It is up to you.

As we now proceed to the interaction and allow for the exchange between you and myself and members of my society from time to time, as we begin our interaction, I will ask you a question. Each one of you, the ones that I choose. And I am asking this question to allow you to begin to consider who you are in a conscious way. Therefore, when we speak individually, as you say, should I ask you, who are you? Be willing, if you wish to play along—I will not force anyone to have too much fun—to state the positive decision of who you are in definite and absolute terms, thereby giving you the ability and opportunity to see who it is you desire to be. Now, because I understand the way that you create gatherings and speaking in public and so forth, as I ask you who you are, it is always your option to say, “I have not yet committed to that decision.” So, do not feel on the spot or that you must in that sense define yourself. But if you are willing to, that will be your first step in beginning to express yourself in conscious terms, beginning to express yourself according to preference, beginning to allow your experience to reflect who you know yourself to be rather than who everyone says you seem to be, how you interpret your circumstances tell you you are, how your past has resulted in your lot in life or for that matter how your future has resulted in your lot in life. For often individuals will define themselves not only by their past timing but as we had said earlier by their future timing: well I need to do this, I haven’t done that, this needs to be handled, this needs to be taken care of. And the bottom line of the decision in that moment is I am not a prepared being and expect my reality to have a negative outcome. Perhaps if I swim a little harder, run a little faster, and work a little bit more laboriously, I might just head off the process. All right, that’s one way to look at it. But it is not necessary, conscious creator. And the statement of a conscious creator always begins by the sentiment or the wording I am. Fill in the blank. You get to choose what goes in that blank. You already do. Now that you know this, you can play a shell game with your intentions and consciousness. But there is no escaping the fact that you now have the information. You now have revealed to yourself in perfect timing utilizing what you consider to be me as a reflection of what you already know to be true for yourself and now are willing to hear and create as an external reflection in your life: me.

When I say that you create your reality 100%, I mean it. Therefore, everything that you see is a reflection of you. The paradox is that this is true for all other individuals. But you need not confuse and perplex yourself with that idea. Simply marvel over it from time to time. But because everything exists within you, every single thing you perceive is created by you to support any decision that you make in your reality. Sometimes circumstance will seem to support your decision by simply being a circumstance whereby you would interpret it saying, “Ah, see my decision stuck. There is the circumstance that proves it.” But the other way that you deliver feedback to yourself is by providing examples that seem to run contrary to your decision to allow yourself to really decide if this is who you are or if you can easily be talked out of that decision and then ultimately make a new decision according to what everyone says, what circumstances and timing dictate. But it is up to you to remain focused and up to you to continue to express yourself consciously continuously for your willingness to interact with me and established that at least part of your decision is to begin to explore more of yourself and attract symbols, external symbology that begins to support your empowered decision. I thank you. I thank you for allowing me to act as facilitator, but more accurately as a mirror. For only can you appreciate and utilize and understand anything that you perceive that I am saying if you first already contain it. Otherwise, the channel’s mouth would be moving and you would hear no words coming out. The fact that you hear it, the fact that it resonates with you, the fact that it seems to inspire you is your direct indication that you already contain that potential within yourself. For ultimately speaking, you are an infinite, multi-dimensional, and eternal being, and you contain it all.

We also get a lot out of these interactions. We also see all of you as an external reflection of us and understand that each unique point of view that we interact with that seems like an interaction with an external being is simply more personal exploration of facets of our own particular individual consciousness. Therefore, in not knowing what you’re going to say, so to speak, in marveling and reveling with your particular approach to your reality as I interact with you, I understand because you are simply a reflection of me to me, that much more about myself, that much more about who I am as a being. And therefore the exchange in these interactions is completely an equal exchange. I thank you for your willingness to allow me to interact with you in this way albeit an unconventional way presently in your mass society, for the honor of your willingness to allow me to reflect to myself who I am, to allow you to reflect to yourself who you are. Again, I thank you unconditionally, lovingly, and ask how we may now be mutually of service to each other through the sharing.

Asker: I would like to… I almost brought a friend. First of all, thank you very much. Oh, one moment. May I ask you a question?

Elan: Yes. Who am I?

Asker: Who are you?

Elan: I am a person who just recently has finally discovered that I deserve to be happy. And I made the decision to come down here tonight in this horrendous weather all by myself. And all the time I was in the car, I felt completely calm. And I thought, if I’ve made this decision, I must know what I’m doing and I’m going to carry it through. And there was no mishap or anything to get here.

Elan: Was your result different from any former result you had derived?

Asker: Yes.

Elan: All right. Yes, very different. But I thank you for being a living example of what I am saying. Could you be just a little more specific about myself?

Asker: Who are you? [laughter] Well, I still have a lot of boogeymen in the closet.

Elan: All right.

Asker: And I still have a lot of fears that I’m facing.

Elan: Is it joyous for you to continue in your decision to express that facet?

Asker: No.

Elan: All right. Then I suggest now that you are being very definite and conscious about who you are that you work in the wording that allows you to experience the freedom of who you are without the self-imposed shackles of these ideas. And again, when you are asserting who you are, deciding who you are, be willing to word it in the positive. Do not define yourself in terms of who you do not wish to be or who you are not but simply be willing to say who you are. Now if I were to ask you who you are and you had formulated a way to express yourself which no longer was relevant to boogeymen and fears in closet, how would you word that?

Asker: I am a person who can make my own decisions trusting that the outcome will be what I prefer.

Elan: All right. How does that feel?

Asker: Good.

Elan: How does it feel to understand in no uncertain terms that you are that person right now?

Asker: Very good.

Elan: Are you willing to trust that decision by maintaining it no matter what?

Asker: Yes.

Elan: Oh, congratulations. Now, may I ask the question?

Asker: Proceed. When you were talking about redefining ourselves and participating in our creations of our realities, I have a friend that I almost brought with me tonight uh who’s had a very horrendous… she’s 45 years old and she’s had a lot of physical mishaps uh two strokes and brain tumors removed and she was badly physically and emotionally abused as a child. And so she has many personalities with which she deals more than 35 at least three of whom I have met.

Elan: Oh right. How well-rounded.

Asker: Right. And I just wondered when you’re when you were talking about creating a reality and making a decision, can can she be able to do this and finally in she’s been at it two and a half years.

Elan: Absolutely. Positively, she already does it. And that is the liberating notion for her to understand.

Asker: What do you mean she already does?

Elan: She already makes a decision that results in the seeming fragmentation of her one consciousness.

Asker: But she’s not conscious of making that decision.

Elan: Well, if you tell her, then she will be to whatever degree she is willing to embrace that idea.

Asker: She just says when things happen, she just lets one of the others tenants, you know, handle it for her.

Elan: A decision.

Asker: I see what you’re saying. Okay. Because I would like to play this tape for her. I think it would be…

Elan: Well you are the tape and the way you understand it and assimilate it is your unique way and therefore whoever you attract and interact with will benefit from your unique presentation of that idea. So by all means utilize any physical tools that you attract but do not remove yourself according to the decision that you have shared with me. You would be more than willing as that person to simply explain in whatever way is obvious to you these ideas. But not with any hint of insisting that the exploration that she now creates is invalid. It is quite valid. It is quite equal to any other exploration, empowered or disempowered exploration that she may ever choose. And this is another helpful distinction in exercising your decision consciously to exercise that decision between equal options. Equal choices with equal weight. Some decisions may be or some options may be more or less preferable. But by allowing them to have equal weight, equal value and as an exploration that gives you equal access to choosing anyone. So what she has going through and creating is all well and good. There are alternatives if she so wishes to apply the system she already expresses consciously. When she begins to simply decide and entertain the mere notion, you mean I can consciously decide who I am, there will already be an absorption and an assimilation of what she has considered to be fragmented personalities to the expression as one person, but not running from 35 individuals that she is simply walking toward the one being she now desires to express herself as, which is not invalidating the 35 but simply choosing because it is also an equal option the one expression. One other question you may ask her is now we understand society how having many personalities can be what you call an inconvenience. However…

Asker: Very frightening.

Elan: Simply posing to her from this point of view what I am about to say is such a different approach that it may also allow her to turn a key within her. And that can be simply saying to her, I understand what you are experiencing and I understand that it can be inconvenient. What I would like to ask you is to, if you are willing, search within yourself from a slightly different point of view and answer the following question to whatever degree you are willing to explore yourself. And the question simply would be, I understand how it has been an inconvenience, but what have you gotten out of it? What have you been forced to look at that you would not have looked at otherwise? Now that’s if she wishes to explore the reasons that she creates her present decision as a prerequisite for making a new purposeful decision. However, although individuals will often wish to understand why they are the way they are if it is an undesirable way before they will allow themselves to change and certainly you can approach it this way. One of the things that I am here to tell you is that again it is a choice but it is not necessary. It is truly not necessary to define why you have turned out in such an undesirable way to decide and change your decision and your expression. Individuals will insist well I can obviously only change if I understand who I am. And so they create the process by which they explore who they’re being. Perhaps they come to a recognition of why, perhaps not. But ultimately, it is none of that exploration that actually results in making the new decision: This is the person that I desire and choose to be. And so ultimately they wind up when they finally change doing the same thing that she can simply do right now without the soul searching. All decisions that are disempowered come along with a lot of baggage, a lot of reasons that you can support why this must be who I am. There is a big distinction between saying I am this person and I must be this person because. You can again explore who you must be and why you must have been that person or you can simply decide all right all right already. It does not matter why I am this person any longer. Because exploring why I am this person simply keeps my attention on one thing: Being this person over and over, bringing in the history, bringing in the evidence, bringing in the logic, creating the support for why I am this miserable, rotten, undesirable, ineffectual person in my reality. No judgment. It is a valid exploration, but ultimately it will be her decision.

Asker: Can I just ask you one thing in support of this? Her both her parents died two years ago and she was told never to tell any of these things that happened at home and one of her personalities, see every week she writes a letter, one of the personalities writes a letter to the psychologist and then the next week they discuss what this personality has said through that personality if you understand what I mean.

Asker: And one of them has said that her father will get her from beyond the grave and is trying to influence her and spoil her life and will cause terrible things. Can can spirits who have died or or gone on still interact with us?

Elan: Well, only to the degree that you are willing to create your version of them, your reason for feeling the desire to communicate with them and ultimately the interpretation of what you perceive to be the message.

Asker: That’s what I told her. Yeah.

Elan: Oh, thank you. [laughter] You are rendering my job unnecessary.

Asker: And that indeed is one of my perhaps you can say underlying goals. If I do my job correctly, I put myself out of a job.

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